Below the clouds

Is a whole world were you hide, in silence, in peace, possibly in awe.

Or perhaps, it is the clouds themselves who are generously hiding you from my insanity.

If you are even there. I at least get the imagine comfort that we weren't as far away as tonight.

Sometimes

It dawns on me, you will never ever speak to me again.

And it hurts. Hurt I brought upon myself, perhaps both.

Happiness is not always fun

I can remember everything.

Every slope, every curve, every down and uphill while your body rocked on top of mine.

How your lips broke any ice.

I remember. Do you?

Still want you here tonight

 

overwhelming indeed

I know its my fault. I know it's mindless. I know its selfish. 

But I miss you. I do. 

Overwhelmingly. 

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Kiss the rain

And wait for the dawn

Keep in mind

We're under the same sky

And the night's

As empty for me as for you

It is overwhelming

At times, the thought I won't ever see you again becomes something I struggle to get a grip on.

And yet, I persevere in my hope.  With doubting whether it would mean anything to you. With the certainty that this silence is you protecting yourself from my own clumsiness, knowing me better than I know myself.

At the end of the day, nothing prevails. And I hang on to my mind to keep you next to me, given that the digital desert offers nothing but mirages.

Au revoir

Ça ne c'est pas un adieu

C'est le ennui que fait rêver

Same cold

Different time and place.

I kept looking

On the streets, on the stores, on the cafes and on the parks. In the cars, in the trains, I seeked through every place for a glimpse of you.

It's not that far. And yet 2h are a world apart, when I might miss you for crossing the street 2 seconds earlier.

I wish I'd be brave, then I would be close. Except I missed you by years, not kilometers.

But today, I sleep a little bit closer, and that makes a cent of a difference.

I try to get closer

And yet, as further apart as always

Like a soul without a mind

In a body without a heart
I'm missing every part

Sick to the stomach

The world turning to ashes and I am not next to you. Nor even will I know your whereabouts.

You warned me. I should have listened.

Always